Day 57

No title today because I don't know what I am going to say.  We were able to do the walk that T2 and I didn't finish.  It was a beautiful day and the tide was low so we literally were walking out in the ocean.  I love low tide. There are mirages while walking during low tide mainly because the sand is so wet you don't realize that it is so far out there.  We had clammers, fisherman and even a horse drawn buggy went by a few times.  T ignored the buggy the first time, but after the second time she decided that big dog needed to know its place on the beach, running around like that.

Usually once we get about half a mile from the parking lot we see just a couple of people, but this time the beach was pretty crowded.  Nice day, cool but not cold, very little wind - nice.  As we were walking back we watched someone learning to handle a para sail.  It actually looked like hard work and she had some trouble keeping her feet on the ground.  I never really thought about it.  I just thought you went out on your board and let the sail pull you, but watching her do it on land I understood it isn't as easy as it looks on water.

I do understand why they have so many shark attacks though.  The other day when we went for a walk we saw the ocean just filled with these little black forms.  I swear they looked like sea otters dotted all across the horizon.  Hundreds of them.  I will take a picture next time and you all can be the judge.

But there were not that many surfers out yesterday.  No waves and the they would have to walk half way to Hawaii to find where the water was.  Hey there is an idea - anyone up for a walk to Hawaii?

Day 56- Half way mark

So we are at the half way mark 8 weeks of Optifast - 8 weeks to go.  It has never been "hard", but I dream of the time that they can eat again.  Since I am still wanting to eat again I don't think that I am ready to go off the shakes.  I want to be at a place in my head were food is not the reward, like it is right now.  If I could take the present attitude of food into my every day life I wouldn't have a problem.

We went to Dickens Faire yesterday, and while it was fun to look at all the dress up, I wasn't in the correct frame of mind.  I thought it was going to be shops and food, but it was entertainment (that was always full) lots of food but the shops were mostly clothes shops (era clothes).  I spent most of the time trying not to make eye contact with the actors because I didn't want them to approach me.  But they would have little skits in the aisle and it could have been really fun...

The storm came, and it was loud and violent, but today it is calm and beautiful - time to get back on the exercise train.

Later gator

Day 55 - T2 Gone Home

We got up early today to take T2 to the airport.  It was sad to see her go, time just slips away when your having fun.

As we were rushing out to take her to the airport TH came out through the garage and I was suppose to shut it but I spaced completely out!!!  Oh well.  So on the drive back to the house TH asks do you think they will pull me over if I do 69 as the needle edged up to 80.  No, I don't think they will pull you over at 69 - but maybe at 80 ya think?

I was informed on the drive home from my loving husband that if the dog got out and hurt he would never forgive me.  I guess that lets me know where I stand.

Hopefully we have a big day today before the rain hits.  Those storm clouds coming in - and T2 trying to get out YIKES!!! Hope she gets out before they storm comes in.

Off to have fun...

Day 54 - Saturday

Well I decided to do a walk in the park, but had to come home because of - well I had to go to the bathroom.  But on the way to the park I got held up and had to wait through 4 lights.  I wasn't sure what the police were doing.  They had stopped only our lane of traffic and let everyone else go.  We waited and I started thinking what the heck they must just not like me.  I was worried that I wasn't going to be able to do the walk because I had to pick up T2 and I was just freaked I wouldn't be home in time.

So we are waiting and waiting and this car start slaying on the horn.  Just doesn't give up.  So not only do we have to wait through this light, but this moron who can't figure out that we are not sitting there because we want to, seems to be enjoying playing his horn.  Then idiot decides that  to cut around traffic so goes up on the curb only to find a cop walking towards him.  Ahh justice.

Anyway there finally came three stretch limos and a bunch of other cars.  And they turned down the direction I was going.  I was a bit confused, there was probably 20 motorcycle cops and they stopped traffic like forever, and when the limos turned towards the beach - I was very confused.  What a funeral procession to the beach?  The I thought Oh it must be Obama and he wanted to show his kids the beach.  Very exciting.  So I followed to see where the went.  The cars pulled over in front of the doggy diner and I was more awed that Obama wanted to go to the doggy diner, then I saw that they actually were going to some Irish church.

Who knew?

Day 53 - Spidell

Today I am up early then I have been in months - years even because we are going to Spidell.  I have two minutes to write this so it will be short and sweet.

T2 arrived healthy at 7lbs 2 oz and has ten fingers and ten toes and a full head of hair already combed and coiffed.

She walked partly with me and we had a great time at the Ocean, but I did notice that she wasn't quite as enthralled with it as I am.  Oh well no one is perfect.

I have to print out work, because I get a little bored at Spidell.

More tomorrow

Day 52 - Weight loss

As one can see it has been 52 days and as have lamented all through these posts it just isn't showing.  Yesterday I had M here and were chatting and I had told her how everyone goes around during group clapping them on their backs saying how much weight they have lost and she looks at me and says - have you lost any weight?

Excuse me?  that was not the correct response.  You would think someone would pick up on those hints.  But nooo - she just has to be to honest.

Honesty can only go so far.  Sometimes little white lies are really okay, but not now of course the ball is out of the bag.  Now if anyone tells me they see my weight loss I will know they are lying.

So I talked with B about it and she said I should wear tighter fitting clothes.  Hey I didn't wear tight fitting clothes when I was younger.  It is true I have taken to wearing stretchy pants and I haven't needed new pants like everyone else in group (everyone else is giving away there fat clothes already) so I don't know if I lost in inches - I refuse to measure until I am down another 20 pounds.

I was weighing and measuring everyday for a while, but that was depressing me so I promised I wasn't going to measure until I lost a certain amount of weight which as stated above is 20 more pounds, so for all I know they are right and I am not showing.

I have weight loss goals set by my excel spreadsheet telling me how much I should be losing calories in calories out.  It was off quite a bit, so I took all the exercise off and now it matches, but... the exercise should count - right?

Well I am off to do some exercycling before T2 arrives so I don't bother her when she is here.

Day 51 - Group

Group was interesting.  KFC was back and she got an earful from the facilitator.  She told us that she went off, but she didn't want to go into details.  Love child was in rare form, talking a mile a minute trying to get her whole therapy session in the one minute allotted, she went over but she is interesting nonetheless.  It is always more interesting to hear more personal stuff then not.  Everyone else was fine.  Doing well.  Enjoying the program.  Loving the weight coming off.

Me, no one compliments me at all.  It is a love fest for everyone else but me.  I guess they just can't tell.  Oh well. But what is worse is that when it is my time to talk and I say I stayed on the program at the beginning, she always asks me at the end if I stayed on the program.  What do I look like the type of person who would cheat?

I am not showing any weight loss, and I don't know when I will, but some people I definitely see the weight loss. For one I saw her and thought she was pretty, (and she still is) but the weight loss has just aged her 10 years.  She seems to have lost most of the weight in her face and you see the wrinkles that you didn't see before.  I probably will need a face lift after this is over.

I can't wait to see T2 I don't like going so long without seeing my playmate.  She is coming in just at the right time.  Low tide is at 4pm (-.9) so the beach will be a wonderful walk, hope she remembers her jacket.