Day 478 - Tuesday - 38.5 pounds to go oops went up

Well it did go up a bit, but I didn't have the 4 mile up hill walk with J, so I am sure that was at least a pound - yea?

Forty pounds before this program is over, wow, I am not sure that is going to be possible.  Especially at this rate.  But on the positive note, I was sure that I had gained like 20 pounds in Ohio, so I only gained 4 - and I lost 1.4, so all is not completely lost.

As it gets closer and closer to the end, I get less and less motivated.  As I have said earlier, it is hard when I don't have anything really pressing.  This week is going to be kind of bad also, my anniversary (ten years) and R first birthday and fundraising dinner (well maybe the fundraising dinner won't be hard we all know about the chicken - yea)

Maybe Baby dog T will give me some motivation.

Day 477 - January 30, 2012 - kindergarten drop out

Well baby dog T just failed her first day of kindergarten.  When we went in they ooed and awwwed over her until we started working with her.  At first they thought we were the problem, because all the other dogs got it the first time, so they worked with her and even they couldn't get her to sit.

Then it was our fault again - you fed her before class didn't you?  No we didn't feed her, we just have a dog who is has ADD.  So we spent the hour trying to get her to sit for us, but finally they told us, just try and get her to look at you.  I finally took her muzzle and pulled it up to my face and bit her.  I know I know not the adult thing to do, but I was completely embarrassed.  I mean really - my puppy failed puppy class.

Day 476 - January 29, 2012 - Finally made it into the pool

After three weeks of being out of the water, I finally made it back in, and boy was it hard.  I still wasn't feeling that well, but I was okay enough to swim a few laps.  Problem as usual was the cramping.  I only got half the workout because I was cramping so bad.  Yikes.

But all in all it turned out to be a pleasant day.  It is always nice to visit with Big D and T1 (even if it is just for a few minutes) and I did need to get out of the house.

I am really bothered though by my chicken neck.  I am wondering if maybe I can have neck lift before I have a body lift.  I know J said that they have tape that you can tape up your sagging skin, but knowing me I would sweat the tape off before anyone saw me.

This is my woe, I like my niece, am an instant gratification person, and I am not getting that at this time.

Day 475 - January 27 - The end is fast approaching

To think that I have 99 days left (just a touch over three months) is hard to believe.  I am not sure what I am going to do without the blog.  It will be a sad day for me, but then on the other hand it isn't so important anymore either.

I am slowly forgetting what it was like not to be able to fit in a chair, or worry whether I will be able to get up from the floor, or if someone is thinking geez she shouldn't be in here she is just to big.  Time has passed thinking that waiters are looking at me thinking I know she eats more (or wow she eats a lot) and having people give me a look of shock when the first see me.

I no longer stand out from the rest of the crowd, no longer do people look at me with pity or disgust.  And I am forgetting what that is like.

But more importantly, I can buy off the sales floor now.  Still in large sizes, but I am not in the largest size that the store has, and all the new clothes that I bought fit...

I am looking forward to the next 99 days, I hope that by the end I will be close to the end.  Enough to say I suceeded at least.

Day 474 - Still sick

Still sick with nothing to write.  I got up in the morning got in the car drove around the block and came running back in the door.  Nope not going to happen today.

Day 473 - January 25 - No more popcorn

So home again, there is no popcorn left, so I can't blame it all on the popcorn any more.  I guess I will just have to go to the movies to get my fix.  So I haven't swum for two weeks, and I was looking forward to getting back in the pool, but that just doesn't seem like it is going to happen.  I came back with a stomach bug, and I daren't leave the house.

But for all my whining and complaining I did not gain 20 pounds, but I did go back to were I was before the first time I lost and the second time I lost in other words up four pounds.  I have thought about it and I think that my body is adjusting to this new weight, and I will let it do what it needs to do and then we will push forward.  I have been at this weight for almost two months, I think we can push forward now?

Maybe tomorrow I will swim.

Day 472 - January 24, 2012 - Elitist

I enjoyed watching the swim meet.  It brought back so many memories, and I realized that when I swam I was a bit of an elitist.  I think that it just goes with the territory.  We would go to the regional meets with my friends and it was a three day event, because I first would have to swim the heat then I would have to swim the final.  I always swam the final, it was a given.

So Baby T is a middle of the packer.  So when she is done with her heats she is done for the day.  Makes for a much shorter meet.  Easier on the back and behind for those spectators.

But, the culture hasn't changed.  The two groups don't mix.  I never went into the stands, never even thought about going to see my parents, it was just me and my mates and the coach telling us to get ready blah blah blah.  It wasn't did you win - it was how far off was I from my best time.  My tantrums (which unfortunately for the coach were many) was always about how I swam the race. 

But I was in a back lot league, I don't think I could keep up with these big dogs.  They were good with some bordering on great.  I was fascinated with the whole meet.  The heats are always the last ones are the fastest, and to see the progression of swimmers from beginners to elites swimmers was a true treat. 

I haven't gotten to the point that I want to compete again.  In fact, just the opposite, but it did have me wanting to get in the water more and see what I can do.  But first the weight.

Oh yea I had popcorn again.

Day 471 - January 23, 2012 - Swim meet part II

So it was the second day of the swim meet and this time I got up 15 minutes earlier, and there was no snow on the ground, so it was very smooth sailing.  We got to the pool 5 minutes early she got her whole workout and we were ready to go!!!!

She did wonderfully, and I can just imagine how well she would do if she actually worked at it.  Ah but that is another story.

I am very depressed, feeling a bit defeated.  I haven't dieted on this trip and I know that I have gained at least 20 pounds.  I am back to the weight I was in July I am sure.  I just can't stop.  And I don't want to stop I guess.  But in all of this I still don't eat those "danger" foods, so as long as I stay away from those foods I know that I can eventual get back on track.

If ever I start to eat sweets, I know that it will be a hard battle.  I love sweets, and I am compulsive about them, so if I allowed myself the luxury of having them unsupervised then I really would binge.  As it is now, I am having problems with popcorn.  So I can only imagine...

Day 470 - January 22, 2012 Swim Meet

So Baby T had a swim meet in which we had to be at at 7:00 am.  Now remember yesterday there was an ice storm, I didn't know where we were going and gosh yes there was ice and snow on the road.  But we of course didn't get up any earlier then we had too (both being night owls mornings are really over rated.) we left right at the time we were told to.  But that timing didn't take into account any extra time for snow and ice.

I drove with -well- care.  But Baby T was freaking out that she was going to be late, and it was going to be all my fault.  Can't you go any faster?  No sorry I can't.  But if you hum a few bars...

We arrived at exactly 7 am, and by the time we were situated it was maybe five minutes late.  I didn't hear the end of the for the rest of the day.  I didn't get to do the whole warm up because we were late.  I told you we were going to be late.  Tomorrow we can't be late.   Yes that is right Baby T who is the one who got up showered and dressed before you rolled yourself out of bed?

On the food front, still no pure optifast, I had popcorn, and whatever dinner was made - ham I think - and oh yea popcorn.

Day 469 - January 21, 2012 - Thai Food

So I felt guilty yesterday for feeding them that horrible steak, so I said I would take them to Thai food.  First it was on then it was off.  They were suppose to get a huge ice storm, and I don't drive in tanks in the ice.  So then the ice storm was postponed, then on again, then it was suppose to hit at 8 pm, so we decided to go to the restuarant.

I didn't drive out, but I ended driving back and the driver next to me kept saying is this how you drive in California?  You know the speed limit is a little faster then you are going.  I mean really?  You want me to drive faster in and unfamiliar car, on unfamiliar roads in the dark in the snow and ice?  I haven't driven in the snow in over 20 years and you want me to go faster?  Sometimes you just have to wonder do they have a death wish (you know like suicide by cop or in this case by SIL.)

Anyway we made it home safe and sound and yes I again had popcorn.  We are running low, it might be time to go get another bucket. 

Day 468 - January 20, 2012 - Snow?

What the heck?  I came here to do the driving for them and what does it do but snow.  I took N1 to her appointment and on the way back I completely spun the car.  A whole 360.  Wow do I hate the snow. 

So other then the snow, and the driving in the snow, there isn't much to say about Ohio.  I mean really snow?  I am excited for the snow as long as I don't have to do anything but sit there and watch it snow.  Have a fire curl up with a good book, you know that kind of thing. 

So I wanted to do something nice for them, so I said I would cook dinner.  Steak to be more precise.  Now who on god's green earth doesn't like steak?  Well I can name four and they all live in the same house.  Wow - who would of thought that kids of my sister wouldn't love steak.  Needless to say that was a bust.  I bought the Rib Eyes and potatoes, cut up some bread and put lettuce on the table.  But no one ate any of that.  Like I said this family is not going to get fat.

I shared a steak with my youngest nephew and her sister.  I mean I could have eaten a whole steak all by myself, and I have to admit I did them just right for me, but I am suppose to be dieting, and eating 16 ounzes of fatty steak isn't really on the diet.  So I had my 4 ounces of steak and - yes POPCORN!!!  I just don't understand what it is with me and popcorn.

Day 467 - January 19, 2012

So about that food business, I had made all these plans to eat product only while here, and to get this great jump start, but I was starving when I got here, and all I could think about was what am I going to eat. 

They had dinner and I realized that I was still hungry.  See this is the problem.  I am used to TH's wonderful meals, and when he cooks he cooks enough to feed a small army.  Well here in Ohio they have a small army and they eat like normal people, so there was none of the extra stuff that TH likes to cook, so I was like thinking these poor people they will never get fat eating like this.

But...they love their sweets.  It is genetic you know.  So they have cookies, candy, ice cream - everything a junk food junky loves and craves.  But more importantly they have popcorn.  I was able to stay away from all foods except for the popcorn.  I am going to have to replenish the popcorn no doubt.

Day 466 - flights

So I flew to columbus and on the flights they fed me. I was excited to actually eat since other times I never got to eat and the food always looked good. Well let me tell you the food on both flights was cold. Ever eaten cold eggs?

It was quiet day, but I knew just knew that it was the calm before the storm.  I am mentally preparing myself for the week ahead, be it what it may.

Day 465 - 36.9 pounds to go

Finally I am were I was December 1.  All caught up, hopefully next week will be a big loss.

Day 464 - How do I always get so behind

So this is Monday and I have one more day before weigh in, packing and getting the needed work done before I leave.  Can it be done?  Stay tuned

Day 463 - Feels weird not swimming

I won't be swimming for a while, and it feels a little weird, but nice in a way - I don't have to get up and go down to that very cold pool.  I am looking forward to Big D's pool opening in April.  Such a nice pool, I usually had it to myself and I got a good tan to boot.

But for now I just have to hope that I won't get to out of shape.  I am thinking when I come back I should probably just swim everyday until my lesson.  But then I will be tired for my lesson and I will swim poorly.  Oh well since I am doing just product for the next week, I figure I don't have to exercise as hard.  I also am hoping that it will put be back on track.  Here is to product.

Day 462 - Why do we wait until the last minute?

So I am off to Columbus, but before I go I have (big long list) so why is human nature such that you always wait until there is no more time before you do what you have to do?  Once you get started you wonder why you put it off, but it is just getting started that is the hard part.

So on top of all that I have to pack.  A bit of a panic, I am going for a week, so I have seven pairs of everything.  A very full suitcase, and then I start to think when I go to India I am going to have to take 4 suitcase (one for every week.)  How do people travel?  Clothes get dirty, if they don't bring a change of clothes everyday what then?  Will I be down at the local laundry mat doing my clothes?  Just how does that work?  Man oh man you can tell I haven't traveled for a while.  I need to be more like T2 and just go with the flow.  She is always my oohm.

Day 461 - Blisters blisters everywhere blisters

So I decided to go out for a four hour walk see where it would take me.  I had a general idea of where I wanted to go, but as I started out I decided that I didn't want to circle the lake twice.  So it was start walking and see where I ended up.

So surprise surprise I ended up at the beach, got sand in my shoe, stopped, emptied the sand and went on.  Everything was going well, no pain easy, but by hour 2 I was getting pretty bored.  I brought BOT, but still it was kind of boring.  And my knee started to flare up just a bit.  But I was determined to do four hours and even though I told TH to come and get me if I called, I was going to do it.

I did do it, but by the time I got to the bottom of my hill I was cold - very cold - it was dark and yes I had blisters on the balls of my feet.  It would have been fine if I hadn't stopped at the dang light, but once I stopped when I started walking I felt both blisters (they were on the exact same spot on both my feet.)

The good thing was I didn't get blisters on the usual spots on my feet.  So we are making progress.  I definitely need a wider shoe, and the shoe I wore was a 10 instead of a 9.5.  I figure that the 10 get me the width I needed, but it was too long, hence the blisters on the balls of my feet.  So my goal is to see if I can find a 9.5 wide.

TH thought that I pushed it to much, that I haven't been walking like I had been last year, but the truth is I have been walking twice a week and the walk I do with J is usually very hilly and it has made the rest of my walking on flat ground easy.  And truthfully, the 4 hour walk did not physically tire me out, I could easily have gone longer if not for the blisters on the bottom of my feet.  But I learned an important lesson - if you have blisters don't stop walking or  you will not be able to finish.

Four hours ten minutes 14.1 miles.  

Day 460 - Even the beautiful are left out in the cold sometimes

Day 459 - Latest Rant

So the fattening of the nation is a big topic for everyone.  It is on the news, books, magazines, TV and radio.  And in all of these discussions there is an overriding fatalistic undercurrent about being over weight.  I listened to a talk on NPR where the guest talked about how an obese person has it so much harder and physically because of the chemistry and what not we have to "eat less" and "exercise more" then our thinner partners.  She was saying that if you lost the weight then you would have to eat 300-400 calories less then someone at the same weight as you to maintain it.

I mean really this is suppose to help?  I think a part of the obesity problem is trying to find excuses for it.  So maybe it is genetic, or there is something different chemically or what have you, but it doesn't help to say you are going to have a harder time to keep the weight off.  We already know how hard it is to take it off and keep it off.    I don't need to be validated for being overweight.  I don't need someone to tell me it is physical, and it isn't calories in calories out.  Of course it is physical, but it still is calories in calories out.

Really, it isn't helpful to tell someone that they are going to have a hard time keeping the weight off or losing the weight.  Do you really think that is going to help?  Do you really think that telling me that it is okay that I was overweight because it was a chemical / genetic / what have you, is going to motivate me?  You know what motivates people - success.  Stories about how people took it off.  Stories about how people kept it off.  Who cares if you have to eat less.  If your body is healthy what does eating 300 calories less really mean?  Who cares that I would have to work out an hour and a half instead of an hour.  Just means I will be stronger, more fit, happier.

I think we have looked at weight loss all wrong.  People need to stop blaming, and I mean they need to stop blaming everything, themselves, mom, dad, church, genetics.   Make a decision.  Do it or not.  But it is ultimately a choice, your choice, and whatever you choose it is the right choice at the time.  Really it is.  If you are not ready to lose weight your not going to.   Some people may never lose the weight while others may.   It is all about why you want to lose the weight, and once you know that the how will come.

Day 458 - 37.7 to go

So I lost a pound, but I still am not were I was at the start of December.  See it took one week to put on four pounds and is taking me four weeks to take it off.  Bummer.

So today at swimming it was kind of hard.  Last night I was having severe leg cramps, and I was sure it would carryover into the morning.  I got to the pool and watched the guy in the lane next to me swim.  He was doing 20 strokes per length, he looked like he was going slow, but that happens when you take fewer strokes, but when I started to swim, he lapped me three times before I got done with the warm up (and coming up to the fourth by the time I was done.)

So when LZ got there I was debating whether to tell her I needed to go easy because of the leg cramps, but I decided we would wait and see if I got them first before complaining.  So she had a fairly packed workout for me, and she told me in her nice way for me to shut up in between sets.  I thought it was kind of funny, she has my number.  So I was to finish up with an all out 150.  She told me how fast she wanted me to go.  I nodded my head, but honestly, I just go as fast as I can, I have no idea whatsoever how fast I am going.

She told me I would probably get tired on the second half of the second fifty, but to work through it.  Yea okay.  I just smiled and nodded my head.  As they say these days it is what it is.

So I now remember why I quit all those years ago.  I was hurting going into the last fifty, and  I was wondering how she would feel if I just let go and glided in.  I was completely anaerobic and I was - well - by the end it was a struggle to just finish up.  But she asked me to do 2:45 - 2:40, and I was praying if I hadn't made it, it would a least be be under 2:50.  She explained before I started that she really would like to see it more towards 2:40 the 2:45.  The last ten yards, I was hoping I would make it to the wall to even get a time.  But I did it.  2:38.  She was happy - I was shocked.  Still I am not sure that it was worth the pain.  You know all the BS about no pain no gain - just that BS.  Oh well.

  

Day 457 - 7:26 whoop whoop

So I finally did a 400 fast for me.  The first one I did was 7:28 and I thought that is it I am spent.  But then my guy got in the lane next to me and took off just as I was starting the second set, so of course I had to push it, just to keep up with him.  I did for the first 10 laps, then I started to fall behind, and by the last lap he was about a body length a head of me.  I still had another three thousand yards to do, and I was tired, but I did my best so far since coming back.

That means I was averaging each hundred @1:52, so when I had said that I had thought he was doing 1:30, I was a little off.  He probably averaging 1:50.  There is a guy who is much much faster then me, and he I would guess is doing 1:05 - 1:10.  Someone who I will never catch.  It is like standing still and he goes flying by me.

Also there is a girl who kicks faster then I swim the freestyle.  Talk about freak out.  But I did do two 400 under 7:30, next goal - under 7:00, maybe June.  But I am beginning to think goals are bad...

Day 456 - Creep

So I have been struggling to continue losing weight.   As I said before the urgency is gone, so is the strictness of the diet.  So in truth I have plateaued for the last two and a half months.

So the truth of plateaus - yes there are probably times when you hit a point that it is hard to come off of, but I am thinking that most plateaus are creep.  Not the Starcraft kind, but the little extra here the little extra there, oh I don't think that has many calories creep.

Yes I have been creeping.  I didn't exercise Saturday and Sunday, and on the scale Monday the weekend creep creeped onto the scale.  Like magic - you know.  I didn't want to go swimming I didn't want to get out of my nice warm bed to go and get into a cold pool and swim.  But I knew that if I didn't that creep would stay on me till Tuesday, and I can't let that happen.

Cripes I hate creep.       

Day 455 - I know I know I am obsessed

So at the pool the other day the girl I talked about earlier (the heavy girl who swims fast) was there.  She came in after I had been swimming and she started out swimming even with me, but then she did a flip turn and that of course is much faster then an open turn so she was off the wall before I could even turn around.  But I would catch her at the end of the pool again, just to have her pull ahead of me again.  This went on for a while, but she went on to do something else because I was doing 2 x 1000 and she was - well I don't know what she was doing.

But I was feeling pretty good.  She wasn't wiping my butt on the floor pool anymore, so that was good.  But then she put those darn flippers on, and she left me in the dust.  I couldn't keep up and I was a bit disheartened.

But when I got done with my work out she was still in the locker room, so I made a comment about how tired I was, and she said she wasn't tired at all.  It was all fun, I think she said play.  So your speed comes naturally, you don't work out?  I was really jealous then.  I work out an hour a day sometimes longer and I am *not* the Queen of the swimming pool she swims what 20 minutes three days a week and she womps me?  Okay it is the age thing I am sure.  She looks to be in her mid to late thirties, so ...

I am not swimming for fitness.  I am not swimming because I am using it to lose weight.  I am not swimming because it makes me feel good afterwards.  I swim because there is this lingering hope that someday I will be Queen and I will be womping everyone else.  

Day 454 - In the mind of a fat girl

When your fat you don't think of yourself fat unless you see a picture or look in the mirror.  You spend a lot time trying to find ways to ignore the weight.  So when people ask don't you feel better, the answer is no.  I don't feel better, I don't feel different, I don't feel healthier.

People my see a change in me, but that doesn't mean I see it or feel it or for that matter am aware of it.  But I had lunch the other day with someone who hadn't seen me for a while and she said you look normal now.  I guess that is fair.  Normal, normal size, even though I do have another - well - lots to lose.  But more in the normal range.

I have learned all these years how to hide weight.  I have been doing it for so long that it is an art form, so even though I am still very over weight people don't see it.  They are seeing me as normal.  Wow that would be nice if it were true, but I am not in the normal range, I am heavier than 75% of other women.  I won't be "normal" for another 30 pounds.  Then I will be normal.

Here is to being normal.

Day 453 - Thursday - No popcorn today

Well I had no popcorn today - none, not one kernel.  But I am hoping tomorrow I can go to the movies and have popcorn.  I am willing to give up my desert for a  bag of popcorn!!!

TH finally came home after being gone way too long.  There is nothing worse then having a dog bark at the stairs in the dark when you are all downstairs together.  I wonder if she does that just because she knows that it spooks me.  And no brave TH to go running upstairs to check for me.  Thank goodness for door chimes.  I was pretty sure it was just ghosts because I didn't hear any chimes, or scampering feet (we all know what it means if you hear scampering feet - time to call pest control.)  So ghost it was.  Or as I said before she was just jerking my chain.  Ha Ha you didn't give me a treat so I am going to scare you.

But he did come home and now I feel safe with my little cowboy next to me.  Certainly am not safe with the big 108 pound wimpy german shepherd next to me.  The little one is more vicious then she is.  

Day 452 - Wednesday - 38.7 pounds to go

As promised - I have 38.7 pounds to lose by April 24, 2012.  So I had gained four pounds, but yesterday when I weighed in I was still under my last goal (thank goodness) and so the race is on.

J said that if I really wanted to do it I should just do product for a while, but the thought of doing product again is not what I would categorize as my happy thoughts.  I am not sure I could even do it again if I tried.  Maybe for that reason alone I should give it a try for a couple of weeks.  Oh well, not at this time.  Maybe when I go to Ohio I can do it for a week  See how that does.

Anyway, 1.3 down 38.7 to go.

Day 451 -Tuesday - Queen of the community pool

I can't help it.  It is genetic.  My fast twitch muscles just ache to be better then anyone else.  So when I started swimming in October, I was a bit devastated that I was um... well I wasn't queen, I wasn't the fastest in the pool and well lets face it I was pretty close to be the slowest in the pool.  Yes that is right I was very very slow.  When you are lapped after 4 lengths you know you are not going to win any swimming races.

So there was a bit of a worry, was this the fastest I was ever going to get.  After 37 year lay off it wasn't ever going to come back?  For the first couple months my left arm was in constant pain.  I worried silently (and sometimes not silently) that I had swimmers shoulder, but I was assured I didn't have the right symptoms for it.  LZ thought it was just unused muscle getting back in shape.  I still am not sure - still occasionally it will hurt.  But that is not the point, the point is I am slow, I am not the queen of the community pool.

I have gotten faster, but not quite fast enough.  I see my nemesis get in the water and I just have to grit my teeth because I just can't keep up.  Problem is they don't know that I am competing with them, so they just go on their merry way and they don't even notice the large woman in the far lane gasping for breath trying not to get lapped.  Oh the horror of it all if they only knew.

But when I started the first 100 was 2:30, now it is 1:42 so we have made progress, but those who pass me by are doing 1:10-1:15.  If I put flippers on and maybe an engine...I may never be Queen of the Community Pool, but I will die trying.

Day 450 - Monday January 2, 2012

It is true Yup 450 days.  With a bit of a setback this season, but hopefully I will put all that behind me in the new year.  I had to take The Baby T into the vet, and though she was very brave, she was in pain afterwards.  Poor baby.

So I decided that we would go and have movie day at Big D's and T's house again.  This time I remember to bring a DVD player, but forgot the remote.  Did you know that you can't really play a DVD player without the remote?

So I did really good on the diet until I got to there house and then I went straight for the popcorn.  Yes I know, I gave T1 the popcorn to get it out of my house, so what do I do but go to their house so I can eat the popcorn.  Yup yup yup.

Day 449 - New Years Day

Well TH is off doing what he likes to do, and I am left at home with the children.  It seems like a good day to visit family, so I packed up my dogs and went to WC.  What a production.  You would think I was going for a week.  Need to take treats, water bowl, pee wee pads, leashes, kennels, towels, chew toys, diapers (not really) and then anything I need.  Then having the dogs both in the back seat made it a bit more difficult to see out the back window.

but we made it there in one piece.  I was looking forward to a day full of LOR, but instead we got TZ.  I like TZ, but I think I like the pinball game better then the show (that is if it ever works.)

But I thought that this day would be good for me because TH was gone and I would only eat my food.  But the minute I walked into Big D and T1 house I went straight for the popcorn.  Did I tell you I am a popcorn addict.  I couldn't help myself.  Popcorn.  I love popcorn.  I had given T1 a tin of popcorn for Xmas (after I ate TH's and K's I knew I couldn't be trusted with a third can.)  And the whole drive over all I could think of was popcorn, popcorn popcorn.

Popcorn it was.  But because I ate the popcorn I didn't eat my desert that night, but I did pop up some more popcorn when I got home.  I tell you I am addicted.

So my new years resolution had nothing to do with popcorn, so *whew* I am glad I didn't break it the first day.

Day 448 - It is Saturday - and I need a new years resolution

2012 is just around the corner, and I haven't come up with a new years resolution yet.  What is a girl to do.

I could be like T2 and shave my head - but no I am not a brave girl.

I could become an outdoor enthusiast - but no I like my creature comforts.

I could reaffirm my desire to get the rest of the weight off - but that isn't really a new years resolution.

Hmm - if I come up with something I will let you know, but in the mean time have a happy new year.

Day 447 - Friday - What to write about

After 447 days of "blogging" I am quickly come to the end of ideas to blog about.  I think that I have hit all the salient points on dieting and specifically how it pertains to me, but I still have over a 100 days to go.  And here I am again five days behind on the dang blog, with nothing new to write.

There is an over riding theme - I am doing good - or as is the case now - I am doing bad.  Recently I found out genetically I am predisposed to obesity.  But that is all statistics.  And we all know how statistics can be manipulated.  But I have to say, when I found out that I have a greater chance of being obese then the average bear, I thought there you go.  However; what about T2?  She too has the same genes as I do and she never even got overweight.  Ah she must be an out-layer.

And then you have women under 50 diagnosed with breast cancer.  The statistics are 1.45 (one in 69) will have breast cancer in their forties.  So I know seven women in my circle of friends who had breast cancer before they were 50.  Truthfully I don't have that big of a group of friends - in fact I would have to say in my little world I would be lucky to say there were 100.  Let's say 100 - so in my world 7% of the women I know had breast cancer before they were 50.  So chances are if you are my friend and you don't have it now your not going to get breast cancer before your fifty.  But I think the clock starts all over after 50 right?

Anyway statistically I am 30 points above the average person to become obese.  I always knew it was my parents fault.