Day 72 - Getting close to first goal

When I started this program I had little goals I wanted to meet - and one of them was to get to a certain weight before January 1.  I calculated and recalculated and thought yes this is something I can do.  I am so close and yet so far.  I need to lose 6.3 pounds by December 31, and I think that I am probably going to be 2 pounds shy.  But I think I can make it by January 4.

We had another cheat this week, so that makes three (this week).  For me it is just hard to understand why anyone would cheat.  They have made it so easy not to cheat that I wonder sometimes if the ones that cheat are the ones that don't keep the weight off.  They should do a study and see if there is a correlation between those that regain weight and those that cheated on the program.

Every group that I have ever been at says accept that you will have a bad day but accept it and move forward.  Weight Watchers actually builds in a certain amount of "cheating" as they give you extra points to use one day or everyday - however you want to use those extra 2000 thousand calories.  But it is like smoking cigarettes - can a smoker really cheat and have one cigarette?  I couldn't.  When you are breaking a habit it is all or nothing.  That is why losing weight is so hard for people.  This is a habit you can't just quit.  You have to eat and you have to eat enough to keep you going and active.

So Optifasts offers just that - enough nutrients to keep you active and enough food to keep you going.  Most of the people are eating 960 calories I am eating 1120 calories, and that for my needs is good enough.  I am not weak, not tired, not grumpy and for the most part not wanting to eat.  I could not allow myself to cheat at this point in time.  It would absolutely devastate me.

Cheating isn't an option and I understand that the program is trying to keep those that fall off the program on the program by saying thats okay you cheated yesterday just get back on today - but it isn't okay for me.

This part of the diet is the no brainer, it is what comes next that will be the trial - because what comes next is you are sometimes in the dark about whether your cheating or not.  Is having a piece of pizza, but staying in your calorie range cheating?  How about two - three - four?  I can save calories from yesterday so I can have cake today?  Does it really work that way?  Again I don't think you can have that piece of cake when you are trying to lose weight, no matter how many calories you saved up for it.  Maybe when you are maintaining, but not during active weight lose.

Oh this could go on and on - Just some random thoughts