Anyone who is a fan of CS Lewis knows what that deeper magic is. A magic before the world was made, so deep that even the most powerful are not aware of it. Only the one that was there knows this magic and even he does not control it.
I came across a deeper magic of my own. Before the time of TH, before I came to this beautiful City, before this blog. Another sense of self and being. As I travel forward, I realize that I do not like all my changes, hence this blog. But the inevitable of change is acceptable, everyone changes, can't help it because we live within time and time is change.
Change is neutral, you make it whatever it is you want it to be, and in my case one of the changes made me overweight. I do not like being overweight, but that does not mean it did/does not do me some good. It is a struggle to be overweight, more then most people know. Every thought in public is about your weight, knowing that everyone is judging, and if they see you they are not interested in knowing you. That is a big one - if they see you. An overweight person is handicapped as surely as a man with one leg, and people look at you the same as any handicapped person. They either see only the handicap or they don't see you at all. Either way you are less.
So were is the good? I realized I am narcissistic. I mean BIL1 couldn't have nailed it better. I accept it. Also compassion - it is something that does not come easily to me, but by being overweight I have learned to be a little more compassionate. I understand peoples struggles a little more, and try and not just look at there handicap and maybe just maybe because of that I become less narcissistic. Just don't expect me to hug you.
Interesting blog. Much to think about. And then you made me laugh at the end. BTW, Dali, as you know, was intrigued by Time and much of his work reflects that. You'll see some in my blog tomorrow. Let's see if you and Dali see eye to eye.
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