Monday, December 20, 2010

Day 70 - 10 Weeks!!!

This is probably getting old, but I have finished up 10 weeks of the Optifast product and I have five more full weeks on it.

I did have a setback Saturday.  I let my head go places it really shouldn't have gone.  I was thinking boy it should would be nice to eat...anything.  I was deep in thoughts about how I didn't care that I was overweight and that I really wanted to eat something.  I fallen off many diets with those thoughts, but right now sitting here writing this blog I am not sure what that feeling was or what exactly those thoughts were.  And it wasn't until Sunday did I realize that those weren't good thoughts.

Sigh, I thought I was better but it looks like I have been living in lala land.  I figured that it was the stress from being pulled over, and that I do have" triggers" other then I like the taste of food.  And now I will be going into my stressful season having to eat food - blech.   If I hadn't been on Optifast I would have eaten.  So when I can make decisions about food other then Optifast will I choose wrong - again?

One of the thoughts that was going through my head was I would never ever lose all the weight so why try.  Though I have gotten a good start I have so much to lose, and it won't be done in a year.  I guess I must just forge forward worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

2 comments:

  1. More than a good start. A great start! And the good thing about doing it slowly is that you will be forging new habits. You can't forge new habits in a couple of months!

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  2. A fantastic start & the skills and will to continue. Your will power is amazing & if we could bottle & sell it, we could rebuild GV. Love "TSH"

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