Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 133 - Start of Week 20

It is hard to believe that I have been doing this now for five months.  It hasn't been a struggle everyday or even every other day, but now I am struggling a little.

Though I haven't "gone off" I am having problems figuring out what to eat.  And because I am on a plateau I think that I haven't been eating correctly, but I have been writing everything down and I am finding that I am under the calories.  I know this was my problem before when I was trying to lose weight - what do I eat?

I bought food on line, but they are dinners, and it is too much to eat two of them a day.  Everyone has advice - cut it in half try cooking one meal - but trying their suggestions just didn't work.  And I worry - TH made yummy cucumber salad and I found I couldn't stop eating it.  Even when my brain said stop.  Just like before.  Brain says stop but it taste too good so I keep eating.  Luckily it wasn't caloric, but that isn't the point - the point was I couldn't stop.  It must be that missing hunger signal or something.

I am staying the course and while I am suppose to be eating 1200 calories I am eating more like 900 calories, and I know that is very bad.  But when I try upping the calories I freak out.  I know this is a contradiction with the cucumber salad, but that was the first time that I had something that I really liked.

Before I wold have thought that I am all alone on this, but I think that if I am struggling with this others in the group are too.  I don't know how many are as dedicated to this program as I am, but I can see how many in the group would gain weight during this period.  Though it has been five months I am trying to change habits that have 20 years in the making, so it isn't quite as easy as people may believe.

1 comment:

  1. Eat 1200 calories per day!!!!!!!! You took 1 ounce of TSH's WONDERFUL tuna & said it was "too much" & was probably 200 calories - 1 (one) f***king ounce - 100 calories TOPS if it was ALL fat rather than about 1/3 vegetables.

    EAT EAT EAT!!!!

    You're working the program, cut don't go crazy!

    What about the MS walk (Mitchell - Slesnick) or the S&M walk (Slesnick & Mitchell - I'll beat you while we walk)!!!!!!

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