Day 292 - Wow time flies

292 days ago I embarked on this journey, 30 years ago even at this weight I would have been done.  That just goes to show how my metabolism has failed me.  In group the facilitator told us that they find that the younger people who lose weight in the program don't continue to come to the group because they don't need it as much as the older people. I look back at my weight loss that I did through Nutrisystem I did quit going and I did keep it off, but as you can see it came back with a vengeance when it came back.  

But I think I was different in some aspects.  I knew my danger point, had told T if I got over a certain weight I would be in trouble, but I ignored those words and gained the weight.  I was thrown in a situation where I didn't know how to eat.  I ate one meal a day and that was all I needed at that time.  I came into a house that ate three meals a day and there was food in the house - as much as I wanted.  I had never lived in a house that was delicious.  I actually remember the day that I lost total control of my eating.  We had breakfast (TH full breakfast style) then we had lunch and I was still full from the breakfast, but I ate the lunch, then he ordered the most delicious steak sandwiches I had ever had.  I was in heaven and in pain.  I was like I can't eat another bite but I did and I finished the whole thing, and I thought when I was done that was stupid I didn't need the lunch and breakfast if I was having this...

And so the years rolled by, and I became more and more of a hedonistic.  Aren't we all hedonist at the core?  But now I am finding pleasure in other things, hopefully that will replace the pleasure I got out of food.