So I was so pleased that I didn't have to get up in the middle of the night to use the restroom, only to discover - oh gosh I forgot to take my pills. Since one is a water pill, it kind of makes sense. Also it made me think maybe it is time for me to talk to the doc about it. Any way I digress.
So T2 was planning on going to yoga at 7:15 am again, and told me I should consider going to the lap swim and get some stroke tips. Anyone who knows me knows I have problems doing "new" things. I am "shy" and feel awkward and uncomfortable in new situations. I always thought if only I lost the weight I wouldn't feel that way any more. Truthfully - I didn't worry about my weight at this event, but I still was shy. Dang I guess it wasn't the weight that made me shy. Anyway she was a little surprised that I went to the swim alone yesterday, and truthfully I was too. So as she tried to talk me into going to the laps class - I just didn't think I could do it, but I woke up at the break of dawn, and well why not.
There is something about being a little awkward around people, when we first got to camp we met a woman who had come to camp alone, and she was a bit shy and awkward too. I was amazed that she had actually had the courage to come all by herself. I wanted to give her a big hug (if I was the hugging type) and tell her she was doing great, but instead I prayed that T2 would get there fast because between the two of us we were having one big awkward moment. T2 did finally show and saved us from ourselves. But somewhere in my head her courage resonated and if she could come to something like this without knowing anyone and being a shy and awkward person I could be brave too.
So off I went to class. Mind you I haven't swum for 37 years, so I was a bit nervous about it, and I was nervous that I would have - well lost "it". And when I got there I saw the instructor and chatted with her for a bit then someone else got there, and the instructor asked if she wanted some instruction. She didn't ask me, and I wondered if it was because she thought I didn't know how to swim or she thought that I would be a dud, or maybe thought I was just to big. When I told her I hadn't swum for 37 years she did say I could swim in the shallow end if that would make me more comfortable. I did my nervous little laugh and said I thought I could manage the deep end - that I did still know how to swim.
The pool couldn't have been more then 10 meters, and after swimming four laps I was exhausted. So I stopped to listen to the instructor talk to the other swimmer, then she looked at me questioningly. She asked if I wanted some instruction as well, and I said sure - that would be great. Then it happened, the sun came out and I got validated. She said I saw you swim and you have a beautiful stroke. But you need to work on...
Happy dance.
Oh I tried really hard to hear what she was saying, but all I heard was your a natural.
The problem - I have absolutely no strength left. All my muscles have turned to mush and even she thought I should have been more powerful then I was. You have a strong stroke, but no strength to go with it - poor me.
After the class we were planning on going kayaking - again something I have never done in my life. I wasn't really worried about it, because I feel comfortable in the water so I knew if I capsized I could swim away. But I thought they would give me some instructions before sending us out on our own.
So when we got to the kayaking place instead of feeling comfortable and confident I started to freak out a little. I have trouble getting up still because of my knees, and the kayak was low, I wasn't sure I would be able to get into or out of it. Furthermore, we were told we wouldn't need to wear a swim suit and tennis shoes were fine, and I could see that it was already wet in the boat so just getting in I was going to be wet.
I started to worry worry worry. T2 asked if I wanted to go alone and I almost started to cry. No I needed my security blanket right then, and T2 just happened to be wearing it, so I had to go with T2. I know I sound like one huge scaredy cat, but - well I guess I am.
They handed T2 two paddles and I went up to get my paddles and T2 asked what I was doing. I looked at her like she was a little slow and said getting my paddles. No, she gently explained I have your paddle, do you really think I can use two paddles? Duh. You know I have been in boats before, but they all had two oars - but when I stopped and looked at the paddles I saw that well you know.
So I get into the back of the boat, (without tipping mind you) thinking that was the place for the weaker kayaker. So as we are heading out of the harbor (with absolutely no instruction whatsoever) T2 informs me that the back person is the one in charge. So she tells me to guide the boat out. What???!!! So I start paddling on the right side as she paddles on the left, and she informs me that we need to paddle on the same side of the boat.
By now I know everyone thinks that I must be just a teensy bit slow on the mental side, but I had it in my head that we were suppose to row on opposite sides. I just couldn't figure it out and in the mean time we are crashing into buoys and dingys and docks while narrowly avoiding fellow kayakers.
So T2 is yelling at me to turn the kayak right so I start paddling on the right side and we go slamming into the dock -again- along with a completely soaking. I look around hoping that Z and her friends haven't seen me make a complete fool of myself, and breath a big sigh of relief - no one in sight, oh yea except for that paddle boat that we rammed.
T2 tells me I need to pay more attention - I am a bit of a gawker. Sometimes when I am driving I get caught up in the scenery or the accident that I don't always pay attention to the road, then I will hear this high pitch squeal = bad T bad T watch the road watch the road oh my god were going to run into that car oh no watch the ditch oh my god we are going over the cliff - you know I do pay attention, only sometimes do I get side tracked and they have those marvelous groves on the side that lets you know you went off the road so I don't know what her problem is.
Anyway this is getting way to long. We made it safely back to dock. And I realized I am very weak in the arms -
So T2 was planning on going to yoga at 7:15 am again, and told me I should consider going to the lap swim and get some stroke tips. Anyone who knows me knows I have problems doing "new" things. I am "shy" and feel awkward and uncomfortable in new situations. I always thought if only I lost the weight I wouldn't feel that way any more. Truthfully - I didn't worry about my weight at this event, but I still was shy. Dang I guess it wasn't the weight that made me shy. Anyway she was a little surprised that I went to the swim alone yesterday, and truthfully I was too. So as she tried to talk me into going to the laps class - I just didn't think I could do it, but I woke up at the break of dawn, and well why not.
There is something about being a little awkward around people, when we first got to camp we met a woman who had come to camp alone, and she was a bit shy and awkward too. I was amazed that she had actually had the courage to come all by herself. I wanted to give her a big hug (if I was the hugging type) and tell her she was doing great, but instead I prayed that T2 would get there fast because between the two of us we were having one big awkward moment. T2 did finally show and saved us from ourselves. But somewhere in my head her courage resonated and if she could come to something like this without knowing anyone and being a shy and awkward person I could be brave too.
So off I went to class. Mind you I haven't swum for 37 years, so I was a bit nervous about it, and I was nervous that I would have - well lost "it". And when I got there I saw the instructor and chatted with her for a bit then someone else got there, and the instructor asked if she wanted some instruction. She didn't ask me, and I wondered if it was because she thought I didn't know how to swim or she thought that I would be a dud, or maybe thought I was just to big. When I told her I hadn't swum for 37 years she did say I could swim in the shallow end if that would make me more comfortable. I did my nervous little laugh and said I thought I could manage the deep end - that I did still know how to swim.
The pool couldn't have been more then 10 meters, and after swimming four laps I was exhausted. So I stopped to listen to the instructor talk to the other swimmer, then she looked at me questioningly. She asked if I wanted some instruction as well, and I said sure - that would be great. Then it happened, the sun came out and I got validated. She said I saw you swim and you have a beautiful stroke. But you need to work on...
Happy dance.
Oh I tried really hard to hear what she was saying, but all I heard was your a natural.
The problem - I have absolutely no strength left. All my muscles have turned to mush and even she thought I should have been more powerful then I was. You have a strong stroke, but no strength to go with it - poor me.
After the class we were planning on going kayaking - again something I have never done in my life. I wasn't really worried about it, because I feel comfortable in the water so I knew if I capsized I could swim away. But I thought they would give me some instructions before sending us out on our own.
So when we got to the kayaking place instead of feeling comfortable and confident I started to freak out a little. I have trouble getting up still because of my knees, and the kayak was low, I wasn't sure I would be able to get into or out of it. Furthermore, we were told we wouldn't need to wear a swim suit and tennis shoes were fine, and I could see that it was already wet in the boat so just getting in I was going to be wet.
I started to worry worry worry. T2 asked if I wanted to go alone and I almost started to cry. No I needed my security blanket right then, and T2 just happened to be wearing it, so I had to go with T2. I know I sound like one huge scaredy cat, but - well I guess I am.
They handed T2 two paddles and I went up to get my paddles and T2 asked what I was doing. I looked at her like she was a little slow and said getting my paddles. No, she gently explained I have your paddle, do you really think I can use two paddles? Duh. You know I have been in boats before, but they all had two oars - but when I stopped and looked at the paddles I saw that well you know.
So I get into the back of the boat, (without tipping mind you) thinking that was the place for the weaker kayaker. So as we are heading out of the harbor (with absolutely no instruction whatsoever) T2 informs me that the back person is the one in charge. So she tells me to guide the boat out. What???!!! So I start paddling on the right side as she paddles on the left, and she informs me that we need to paddle on the same side of the boat.
By now I know everyone thinks that I must be just a teensy bit slow on the mental side, but I had it in my head that we were suppose to row on opposite sides. I just couldn't figure it out and in the mean time we are crashing into buoys and dingys and docks while narrowly avoiding fellow kayakers.
So T2 is yelling at me to turn the kayak right so I start paddling on the right side and we go slamming into the dock -again- along with a completely soaking. I look around hoping that Z and her friends haven't seen me make a complete fool of myself, and breath a big sigh of relief - no one in sight, oh yea except for that paddle boat that we rammed.
T2 tells me I need to pay more attention - I am a bit of a gawker. Sometimes when I am driving I get caught up in the scenery or the accident that I don't always pay attention to the road, then I will hear this high pitch squeal = bad T bad T watch the road watch the road oh my god were going to run into that car oh no watch the ditch oh my god we are going over the cliff - you know I do pay attention, only sometimes do I get side tracked and they have those marvelous groves on the side that lets you know you went off the road so I don't know what her problem is.
Anyway this is getting way to long. We made it safely back to dock. And I realized I am very weak in the arms -
Kayak kayak kayak!
ReplyDeleteWill I have to kneel or can I sit? If I have to kneel, I'll change my yell to "power boat, power boat, chariot, chariot"!
Great news on the swimming BUT - you used to go to the Stonestown Y in the early 90's, so it's less than 20 years not 37 years (still a long time).
Time to use the Nordic Exercise Chair - we both need it.
Muscle mass, muscle mass, muscle mass!
Where's the whine switch?