So yesterday at Kaiser there was a new cohort waiting for there medical checks, and I sat down next to this woman who was maybe as large as I was when I started. I don't know really, it is hard to tell because everyone carries their weight differently. But she was large and she was overflowing the chair like I used to, so I just put her in my weight range.
My thought last night wasn't my how large she is, but she can do it too. I wanted to tell her I was as large as she was and I lost a lot of weight, but though I would want to hear it, I don't think I would take kindly to someone telling me - I was as fat as you and look how far I have come.
I still feel daunted by what I still have left to lose, but the urgency is gone. I am of a size that the world accommodates for. I don't have to worry that I won't fit in a booth or seat, that I will be scorned or turned away because I am too large, people are more accepting of my weight now then - well ever.
At this weight when I was 23 I was scorned and looked down upon, but as you get older people are more accepting of you being a bit larger (a bit) I guess they figure at this age whatever sex appeal I had went away when you got "middle aged." So...it is okay to be "matronly" so to speak.
But you can't swim fast being matronly.
My thought last night wasn't my how large she is, but she can do it too. I wanted to tell her I was as large as she was and I lost a lot of weight, but though I would want to hear it, I don't think I would take kindly to someone telling me - I was as fat as you and look how far I have come.
I still feel daunted by what I still have left to lose, but the urgency is gone. I am of a size that the world accommodates for. I don't have to worry that I won't fit in a booth or seat, that I will be scorned or turned away because I am too large, people are more accepting of my weight now then - well ever.
At this weight when I was 23 I was scorned and looked down upon, but as you get older people are more accepting of you being a bit larger (a bit) I guess they figure at this age whatever sex appeal I had went away when you got "middle aged." So...it is okay to be "matronly" so to speak.
But you can't swim fast being matronly.
Tres interessant.
ReplyDeleteYou CAN swim fast being matronly - pay the pain & see the gain.
ReplyDeleteIf you can't hear the chime, then don't do the climb (sorry Baretta).
If I had been the woman, I'd be encouraged if GT3 (also known as gorgeous T3) told me where she'd been & & where she's going. She can see for herself where you are.