When your fat you don't think of yourself fat unless you see a picture or look in the mirror. You spend a lot time trying to find ways to ignore the weight. So when people ask don't you feel better, the answer is no. I don't feel better, I don't feel different, I don't feel healthier.
People my see a change in me, but that doesn't mean I see it or feel it or for that matter am aware of it. But I had lunch the other day with someone who hadn't seen me for a while and she said you look normal now. I guess that is fair. Normal, normal size, even though I do have another - well - lots to lose. But more in the normal range.
I have learned all these years how to hide weight. I have been doing it for so long that it is an art form, so even though I am still very over weight people don't see it. They are seeing me as normal. Wow that would be nice if it were true, but I am not in the normal range, I am heavier than 75% of other women. I won't be "normal" for another 30 pounds. Then I will be normal.
Here is to being normal.
People my see a change in me, but that doesn't mean I see it or feel it or for that matter am aware of it. But I had lunch the other day with someone who hadn't seen me for a while and she said you look normal now. I guess that is fair. Normal, normal size, even though I do have another - well - lots to lose. But more in the normal range.
I have learned all these years how to hide weight. I have been doing it for so long that it is an art form, so even though I am still very over weight people don't see it. They are seeing me as normal. Wow that would be nice if it were true, but I am not in the normal range, I am heavier than 75% of other women. I won't be "normal" for another 30 pounds. Then I will be normal.
Here is to being normal.
T3 - you will never be normal & I am not talking about weight!.
ReplyDeleteYou will ALWAYS be special & will always put the "normal folks" to shame.
Time for TSH to put his class together - 111 consecutive semesters - WOW! (36 years & two semesters completed without missing a semester of teaching).
Also off to Goodwill or Salvation Army and/or store for "heel inserts".
I echo that...you will never be normal. YAY!!!!!
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