I decided to just write one big post rather then a bunch of small post, but of course I can cut and paste if you all want a day by day blow.
First off the confession. I lost 6.5 pounds in a weeks time and I put it back on two weeks. Which leads to the first part of this blog. It was a bit of a learning experience or should I say eye opener to see that after a year and a half old habits are just around the corner. It is just one morning you wake up and you think I am close, I don't have to worry as much anymore and the next morning you wake up and say what did I just do. Maybe it is a bit like being an alcoholic. Is the hangover really worth the binge? Truth - sometimes yes.
I was literally in spitting distance of being fat rather then obese at one point in this little journey. If I was still on the product I would have hit that mark in two weeks. If I was still on the product I would be at goal weight and would be done with this here project, but I am not on product, and I am not a perfect dieter anymore. A little of this a little of that.
So TH said why don't you try one day on and one day off. I have thought about that, but I know my mind and I might take that one day off as a license to steal - . So I was only going to eat TFD and nothing else. I did that for one day and I got the worse caffeine withdrawal headache that I made myself an espresso at 8:30 at night just to get rid of it. So I decided if I swim or exercise first thing in the morning I will allow myself to have a latte in the morning.
That is indeed a motivator. I woke this morning saying I am not going to swim. I don't feel like it, I feel sluggish and tired, then I thought hmm no latte? I went swimming. So when I go to bed every night I weigh myself in my pjs and everytime I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom I weigh myself. I have been doing really well these past couple of weeks, and I am two pounds away from that six and a half pound loss/gain, but last night I actually gained a pound from when I went to bed and when I got up in the morning. Maybe that is why I was so sluggish this morning in swimming. Maybe it was the full moon - at least that is what I have been told by a very reliable source.
So anyway I was feeling so guilty about the weight gain I decided I had to go to the class, confess my sins and be absolved. One of the things that is true with any problem you may have is that if you do something wrong you want to be forgiven. You want other people to say that is okay, we understand, it is okay if you gain all the weight back don't worry we will still love you.
What I didn't expect was to be thrown in front of another group to have an open discussion about the process and how we felt about it all.
I know I know everyone wants to hear the success stories, everyone wants to hear how much you lost on the program, because if you can do it then they can too. There is also another component for people who were as large as I was. You see that people lose 40-50 and even 60 pounds, but what about those that have much more then that to lose. I always wanted to hear about the person who lost over a hundred pounds. The really obese person. The story that will let me know I too can do it if they can. That it is possible no matter where you start you can succeed.
I am actually going have to do this in two posts as I have to go pick TH up at BART.
And someone farted and it wasn't me. If I don't leave this room now I am going to pass out.
First off the confession. I lost 6.5 pounds in a weeks time and I put it back on two weeks. Which leads to the first part of this blog. It was a bit of a learning experience or should I say eye opener to see that after a year and a half old habits are just around the corner. It is just one morning you wake up and you think I am close, I don't have to worry as much anymore and the next morning you wake up and say what did I just do. Maybe it is a bit like being an alcoholic. Is the hangover really worth the binge? Truth - sometimes yes.
I was literally in spitting distance of being fat rather then obese at one point in this little journey. If I was still on the product I would have hit that mark in two weeks. If I was still on the product I would be at goal weight and would be done with this here project, but I am not on product, and I am not a perfect dieter anymore. A little of this a little of that.
So TH said why don't you try one day on and one day off. I have thought about that, but I know my mind and I might take that one day off as a license to steal - . So I was only going to eat TFD and nothing else. I did that for one day and I got the worse caffeine withdrawal headache that I made myself an espresso at 8:30 at night just to get rid of it. So I decided if I swim or exercise first thing in the morning I will allow myself to have a latte in the morning.
That is indeed a motivator. I woke this morning saying I am not going to swim. I don't feel like it, I feel sluggish and tired, then I thought hmm no latte? I went swimming. So when I go to bed every night I weigh myself in my pjs and everytime I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom I weigh myself. I have been doing really well these past couple of weeks, and I am two pounds away from that six and a half pound loss/gain, but last night I actually gained a pound from when I went to bed and when I got up in the morning. Maybe that is why I was so sluggish this morning in swimming. Maybe it was the full moon - at least that is what I have been told by a very reliable source.
So anyway I was feeling so guilty about the weight gain I decided I had to go to the class, confess my sins and be absolved. One of the things that is true with any problem you may have is that if you do something wrong you want to be forgiven. You want other people to say that is okay, we understand, it is okay if you gain all the weight back don't worry we will still love you.
What I didn't expect was to be thrown in front of another group to have an open discussion about the process and how we felt about it all.
I know I know everyone wants to hear the success stories, everyone wants to hear how much you lost on the program, because if you can do it then they can too. There is also another component for people who were as large as I was. You see that people lose 40-50 and even 60 pounds, but what about those that have much more then that to lose. I always wanted to hear about the person who lost over a hundred pounds. The really obese person. The story that will let me know I too can do it if they can. That it is possible no matter where you start you can succeed.
I am actually going have to do this in two posts as I have to go pick TH up at BART.
And someone farted and it wasn't me. If I don't leave this room now I am going to pass out.
Such a nice sweet blog until the "somebody farted" part - we all know it was Taya. T3 used to say that Taya ALWAYS smelled sweet no matter what the noxious discharge might smell like to me.
ReplyDeleteStill don't know how if the one day on & one off regimen is an option.
We're getting 3/5 of the Texas crew arriving today (Saturday, 3/10/2012), so that's exciting.
Blog on!