So something rang true at our last group meeting. One of the participants stated she was tired of being on a diet. That she didn't want to be on a diet forever.
It is a truth that is still reverberating. I have been dieting or pretty close to dieting for the 523 days. As I stated in prior posts, it isn't something you can just turn off. I think I will quit eating for the next couple of years and see how that goes.
No it is constantly on / with you. You think about it everyday, you worry about whether or not you ate "too" much, what the scale is going to say through the night, and not understanding the normal fluctuations of your body can lead to panic and despair.
There has to be a time when you say that is it - I am done. On to the next adventure. But can you say that before you are done. It isn't like reading a book that is horrible and you just can't finish it. If you quit before you reach you desired goal, does that mean you failed?
I don't want to be dieting for the next year - just to take off the last bit of weight, but I don't want to quit at this weight either. This weight just isn't right yet. Though I feel comfortable (more so then before) I feel in some ways it still is holding me back. I want to walk into a department store and not go to the plus size. I want to be able to walk into a clothing store and know that I can buy off the rack - that they will have my size. I will fit.
I want to not panic when someone takes my picture, because I know I will look bigger in it then I think of myself right now.
But mostly I want to finish what I started. I had a goal weight in mind, and that is where I want to be. I just wish I had gotten there already.
It is a truth that is still reverberating. I have been dieting or pretty close to dieting for the 523 days. As I stated in prior posts, it isn't something you can just turn off. I think I will quit eating for the next couple of years and see how that goes.
No it is constantly on / with you. You think about it everyday, you worry about whether or not you ate "too" much, what the scale is going to say through the night, and not understanding the normal fluctuations of your body can lead to panic and despair.
There has to be a time when you say that is it - I am done. On to the next adventure. But can you say that before you are done. It isn't like reading a book that is horrible and you just can't finish it. If you quit before you reach you desired goal, does that mean you failed?
I don't want to be dieting for the next year - just to take off the last bit of weight, but I don't want to quit at this weight either. This weight just isn't right yet. Though I feel comfortable (more so then before) I feel in some ways it still is holding me back. I want to walk into a department store and not go to the plus size. I want to be able to walk into a clothing store and know that I can buy off the rack - that they will have my size. I will fit.
I want to not panic when someone takes my picture, because I know I will look bigger in it then I think of myself right now.
But mostly I want to finish what I started. I had a goal weight in mind, and that is where I want to be. I just wish I had gotten there already.
eloquently said
ReplyDeleteGreat post - you will get to your goal & sooner than you think.
ReplyDeleteBeing with T3 is all I could wish for, so I'm already there.