Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Day 536 - Where will you be in a year?

So I have this horrible worry that if I finally do finish trying to lose weight, I will gain it all back in a year.  The memory of all that was bad is slowly fading ( for the better or worse) and I am left with the only real reminder of lose skin.

Dr. C was telling me that it is all in the mind of the individual.  She said that studies show that after you lose the weight most people start gaining it back immediately.  And for those who do gastric bypass this also is true.  That doesn't mean it will happen to you, she told me, but really, stop telling me I will gain it back or you hope I won't gain it back.  It just doesn't help.  In group we talked about those people who said don't get rid of your old clothes because you will be needing them soon, this is the same thing.  I really know that I am not going to ever stop watching what I eat just because I lose the weight.  I know that it will be a constant battle everyday of my life. I know that there will be times when I will just completely lose it and binge, but for now in the here and now let me just focus on losing it first.  Let me finish this battle before telling me I am losing the war.  That I am fighting something with an inevitable ending that will not be in my favor.

Hopefully when I finish this round, I can spend the next 52 weeks working on keeping the weight off.  I plan on doing the whole program, start to finish, and I hope after three years I will have enough of a foundation to succeed, but for now it is just one day at a time.

1 comment:

  1. Well said.

    You are going to win this war even if you lose a few minor battles. QUIT STEALING MY CRACKERS!!!!!!

    Let Tolar steal some of your food - she can at least play with it.

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