I went out to dinner again, and again only had diet pop, but I am getting used to not ordering. So...we must just go forward and hope for the best in the end.
As T1 says I have quit talking about the diet and now am only talking about how much time I have left. Five weeks and I will once more get to have three ounces of chicken and vegetables. I remember last time how I savored those three ounces of chicken and how much I enjoyed it ... for a second. Then all other flavors came rushing in, and I gave up on the veggies, but I kept true to the meat. We all know now that meat is very caloric, right up there with some of my favorites deserts.
Lucky me, now just one more hurdle and I will be forever what? Watching my weight.
I don't think I have made it clear how scared I am about this next process - step. I am terrified. I want this to end, but at the same time I don't want to give up the crutch of the product. I know I can't stay on it forever and the scary part is I really don't want to. I have been saying to myself that I will try and lose another 30 pounds so I will continue to watch what I eat, and if I do that than I can keep it under control. Maybe if I lower my goal weight and keep trying to lose the weight then I will be able to maintain?
Scary days ahead.
As T1 says I have quit talking about the diet and now am only talking about how much time I have left. Five weeks and I will once more get to have three ounces of chicken and vegetables. I remember last time how I savored those three ounces of chicken and how much I enjoyed it ... for a second. Then all other flavors came rushing in, and I gave up on the veggies, but I kept true to the meat. We all know now that meat is very caloric, right up there with some of my favorites deserts.
Lucky me, now just one more hurdle and I will be forever what? Watching my weight.
I don't think I have made it clear how scared I am about this next process - step. I am terrified. I want this to end, but at the same time I don't want to give up the crutch of the product. I know I can't stay on it forever and the scary part is I really don't want to. I have been saying to myself that I will try and lose another 30 pounds so I will continue to watch what I eat, and if I do that than I can keep it under control. Maybe if I lower my goal weight and keep trying to lose the weight then I will be able to maintain?
Scary days ahead.
We ALL know that you're scared, but we all believe that you'll face the challenge & come through with flying colors with maybe a few vegetable stains on your face (well, probably not since you're not as messy an eater as "TSH").
ReplyDeleteGiven your many comments/changes, I don't have a clue how many pounds your still have left to reach your goal. If I'm going to get you "reward/presents", need to know how much left & how long you expect it to take. Diamonds take awhile to make.
Well said. I can see the push/pull of product.
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