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So ends this stage of the blog. For all intents and purposes I am done with dieting, and now I am beginning transition to maintenance. I have seven pounds to my goal weight and 7.5 pounds to being in the "normal range" but transition will take me those last seven pounds I am sure, and if transition doesn't the surgery most certainly will. I have basically completed this stage of the weight loss, and I have to say that there is a bit of a let down. For almost two years my whole life has been about weight loss and getting to a certain "number" a huge goal and at times it seemed to be a goal I wouldn't be able to make, but now that I have there is a sadness.
Like I have lost an old friend, one who I could always count on, that let me know that everything was normal. This - this is like moving and losing your job, your friends, your life. Every morning waking up and getting on the scale hoping it would be just a little less. The excitement when it was, the frustration when it wasn't. But it was a daily goal, something to measure my success or failure. Now my success is just for the scale to not move. It really is a whole different mind set. It is much more difficult in many aspects, I am new at this, but I know my old habits. I keep saying to myself, keep trying to lose weight then maybe you can just maintain. But I don't want to keep that mind frame of actively loosing weight. It ultimately is unhealthy. It is part of the problem to begin with, so no I don't want to say "I am on a diet".
I weigh less then what I lost (I lost more then what I weigh right now) I am a freak of nature. I am a freak that I got so heavy, I am a freak that I lost it all. People said it couldn't be done, I said it couldn't be done, but I did it. And to be honest, it went a little faster then I thought. It took twenty years to put it all on, it took two years to take it all off. I am 53 years old and I beat the odds.
So ends this stage of the blog. For all intents and purposes I am done with dieting, and now I am beginning transition to maintenance. I have seven pounds to my goal weight and 7.5 pounds to being in the "normal range" but transition will take me those last seven pounds I am sure, and if transition doesn't the surgery most certainly will. I have basically completed this stage of the weight loss, and I have to say that there is a bit of a let down. For almost two years my whole life has been about weight loss and getting to a certain "number" a huge goal and at times it seemed to be a goal I wouldn't be able to make, but now that I have there is a sadness.
Like I have lost an old friend, one who I could always count on, that let me know that everything was normal. This - this is like moving and losing your job, your friends, your life. Every morning waking up and getting on the scale hoping it would be just a little less. The excitement when it was, the frustration when it wasn't. But it was a daily goal, something to measure my success or failure. Now my success is just for the scale to not move. It really is a whole different mind set. It is much more difficult in many aspects, I am new at this, but I know my old habits. I keep saying to myself, keep trying to lose weight then maybe you can just maintain. But I don't want to keep that mind frame of actively loosing weight. It ultimately is unhealthy. It is part of the problem to begin with, so no I don't want to say "I am on a diet".
I weigh less then what I lost (I lost more then what I weigh right now) I am a freak of nature. I am a freak that I got so heavy, I am a freak that I lost it all. People said it couldn't be done, I said it couldn't be done, but I did it. And to be honest, it went a little faster then I thought. It took twenty years to put it all on, it took two years to take it all off. I am 53 years old and I beat the odds.
I am very proud of you! You have accomplished more in 2 years than most people do in a lifetime. I have always said that you are a fighter. You are NOT a freak. You are T-bird and now is your time to soar!!!
ReplyDeleteAs I watched you eat your first "real food" in four months (a very small piece of chicken & some broccoli), I was amazed to watch you actually share a bit of it with both Taya & Tolar. Your first food & you ate it slowly AND shared with our beloved pets.
ReplyDeleteI've always known you're a winner, but you've definitely WON this time. I suspect you won't share your first Latte, but that's OK too.
Please continue the blog - we all enjoy it. I enjoy reading Kimmie's comments & Twila's and occasionally those from other friends & family.
You've lost MORE weight than you presently weigh - that's definitely a gold medal winning achievement!
Love & applause from your fan club
Wow, beautifully written
ReplyDeleteYou are my hero!
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