Day 107 - Bad night

Last night didn't go so well for me.  When it came my time to "share" I told them what I was doing about the food.  The facilitator asked if I could keep that up indefinitely.  I said well at least in the beginning and she said that is awful expensive.  I said I wasn't worried about the money - I mean I am spending $4300 on the program - with food being $130 a week - what is the difference between spending $130 on shakes and bars rather then prepared balance meals.  I didn't say that, but after I said I wasn't worried about the money I heard Ms Sourpuss make a snide comment.  Hurt my feelings - but I will get over it.

B has lost 72 pounds in the 15 weeks, and he was upset because this last week he only lost a pound.  Boy some people are greedy.

I also figure that I haven't been exercising correctly.  I am not bringing my heart rate up high enough, so I did an experiment on the ellipitical and I tried to get my heart rate up, but my legs gave out before I could get the heart rate up.  Bummer!  I am not sure how I am going to do that.  The guideline on the elliptical is 130-150 strides per minute - I have been averaging about 125 - so I think I will work on the strides first see if I can get my legs strong enough to do 150 so that I can bring my heart rate up.  And of course walking doesn't do it.  Unless I started walking up hills, but that seems too hard on my knee.  Problems - problems -problems...