Group was very "relaxing" so to speak. We had a nutritionist come to talk to us about our eating (something different this week?) and she then spent the time trying to teach us to meditate. So for about half an hour she was telling us to go to our "quiet" place -breath in deeply breath out fully- you know the stuff T2 told me to do when I need to get up a hill. She even looked a bit hippyish.
So she went over the same stuff why do we eat do we know why we eat how to control eating...learning that it is okay to binge, but how to get our minds around the fact that if we binge we can still continue our diet. I am still on the fact that they accept failure and that failure is inevitable at some point in time. I still don't understand why failure has to be expected. I have spent the last 14 years accepting failure, waiting for the "right" time and when that time didn't come accepting it and then gaining more weight.
Before I started this program I expected to fail, now I expect to succeed and because of that I don't have any desires that are stronger then that I want to succeed. I look at some foods and think that would be good to eat, but my desire to succeed outweighs the food (haha).
So the interesting part of the whole program was she asked a question - how do you know your hungry? I hadn't eaten that much that day so I knew I should be hungry, but I wasn't -or I didn't think I was. So as we meditated we were to understand our hunger cues and understand that feeling of hunger. Truth be told I couldn't tell. The only time that I do know when I am hungry is when my stomach feels like it is eating itself. I think that is "too" hungry, but I don't seem to have any other bodily cues that I am hungry. Which explains why when I wake up I am never "hungry" how I can go all day and never be "hungry" then my stomach starts hurting and I am ravenous. I must be broken.
So she went over the same stuff why do we eat do we know why we eat how to control eating...learning that it is okay to binge, but how to get our minds around the fact that if we binge we can still continue our diet. I am still on the fact that they accept failure and that failure is inevitable at some point in time. I still don't understand why failure has to be expected. I have spent the last 14 years accepting failure, waiting for the "right" time and when that time didn't come accepting it and then gaining more weight.
Before I started this program I expected to fail, now I expect to succeed and because of that I don't have any desires that are stronger then that I want to succeed. I look at some foods and think that would be good to eat, but my desire to succeed outweighs the food (haha).
So the interesting part of the whole program was she asked a question - how do you know your hungry? I hadn't eaten that much that day so I knew I should be hungry, but I wasn't -or I didn't think I was. So as we meditated we were to understand our hunger cues and understand that feeling of hunger. Truth be told I couldn't tell. The only time that I do know when I am hungry is when my stomach feels like it is eating itself. I think that is "too" hungry, but I don't seem to have any other bodily cues that I am hungry. Which explains why when I wake up I am never "hungry" how I can go all day and never be "hungry" then my stomach starts hurting and I am ravenous. I must be broken.
T3 my sweet, you're definitely NOT broken.
ReplyDeleteTSH also can't tell when he's hungry - the nutritionists we went to last March/April had us do "hunger charts" & I must admit I was always guessing.
T3, you're likely not eating enough & your TSH eats too much - often when I'm not hungry. TSH needs to get chopped vegetables to fill the gap
Snow in Grass Valley is now almost 5" deep (I measured it with a ruler)
Whitemop doesn't blend into the snowbank because her nose sticks out.
Well, I went from ROFL at the beginning, to pondering the vicissitudes of life at the end. Interesting blog!
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