T2 sent pictures of our time in Big Sur, most annoying was the shots of my back with huge rolls of fat. How can anyone stand to look at me? It brought home enough for me to realize that I am far from done.
However, even though I still look huge, I most notably notice chairs. My ability to sit in chairs and not worry about whether they will fit or not. Finally. We went to the theater, and for the first time in years I fit comfortably in the chair. It was a wonderful feeling, and I don't ever want to have to worry about sitting in a chair ever again.
So I now realize that people still see me as large even though I wasn't feeling really large. I was feeling more confident. I even started to think that people weren't judging me for my weight anymore - Oh well it is good to have a reality check every now and then. I don't know how much more weight I will have to lose to get to that point, but it isn't happening now.
However, even though I still look huge, I most notably notice chairs. My ability to sit in chairs and not worry about whether they will fit or not. Finally. We went to the theater, and for the first time in years I fit comfortably in the chair. It was a wonderful feeling, and I don't ever want to have to worry about sitting in a chair ever again.
So I now realize that people still see me as large even though I wasn't feeling really large. I was feeling more confident. I even started to think that people weren't judging me for my weight anymore - Oh well it is good to have a reality check every now and then. I don't know how much more weight I will have to lose to get to that point, but it isn't happening now.
T3 - stop beating yourself up! You're doing GREAT!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou look lovely & always have (admittedly I'm extremely biased, BUT I'm also very direct & honest) - YOU LOOK SUPER!
I hope you'll also continue to feel great & good about yourself. Even though (as on Sunday), you try to push the exercise envelope - maybe I should make sure I renew the life insurance!
My reality check is: TANYA IS DOING SWELL!!!!!
I love that you've reached the chair goal. That opens the entire world, no?
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