That is the constant push pull of someone who wants or tries to diet. Most heavy people who want to lose weight have this constant battle with themselves. Instant gratification vs well not instant. We struggle daily with the prejudice and the looks of disgust, but still we go home and stuff our faces, because we can't and we won't.
But for most there comes a day when you just say I will. I will for today. But for most today isn't good enough, you need five hundred of those today's to make it happen (or three hundred or one hundred) and today is harder to beat then tomorrow. Sometimes I think it goes further down to right now. Right now I won't eat that donuts, but when I did that when I was heavier, I would eventually end up eating it even if it wasn't right now.
So how many today's can a heavy person handle before it turns into tomorrow? Is there a point that you just don't like eating the way you do and you want to have that rich and creamy food again? I think that the answer is yes.
However, when we were on Optifast I didn't have that much in the way of food cravings. It was sufficient what I had and I never had to worry about anything else. As I have gotten further and further away from Optifast, and started having to think more and more of what I can and can't eat I find I drift more and more back to the old ways.
So I am going to Ohio for a few days. I decided to do the program again (just three days) and get back to what that feeling of being in control, to know exactly what I could eat and not worry about the calories. To know that I can survive on less and be satisfied. And maybe - just maybe I can get my head back completely in the game and break that plateau.
But for most there comes a day when you just say I will. I will for today. But for most today isn't good enough, you need five hundred of those today's to make it happen (or three hundred or one hundred) and today is harder to beat then tomorrow. Sometimes I think it goes further down to right now. Right now I won't eat that donuts, but when I did that when I was heavier, I would eventually end up eating it even if it wasn't right now.
So how many today's can a heavy person handle before it turns into tomorrow? Is there a point that you just don't like eating the way you do and you want to have that rich and creamy food again? I think that the answer is yes.
However, when we were on Optifast I didn't have that much in the way of food cravings. It was sufficient what I had and I never had to worry about anything else. As I have gotten further and further away from Optifast, and started having to think more and more of what I can and can't eat I find I drift more and more back to the old ways.
So I am going to Ohio for a few days. I decided to do the program again (just three days) and get back to what that feeling of being in control, to know exactly what I could eat and not worry about the calories. To know that I can survive on less and be satisfied. And maybe - just maybe I can get my head back completely in the game and break that plateau.
Sounds like a great plan, AND the exercise from carrying that heavy Optimfast won't hurt (unless it breaks the suitcase).
ReplyDeleteTaya & TSH will miss you - salads while you're gone & a hamburger for Taya on Monday night.
T3 in Ohio & T2 flying in from Colorado then next week yours truly, TSH, to South Dakota. We're helping the economy, at least the airlines.
Seriously, your blog today was very insightful & I hope to be able to apply some of the lessons with my own struggle of indulge/defer - so far I've been losing the battle this year. I'll toss the Halloween candy as soon as the gremlins/goblins/parents have left - it's a start.
Taya doesn't need the Halloween candy (or the hamburger either, but .....)
I second it. A good plan!
ReplyDeleteTSH is going to S.D.???