Friday, December 30, 2011

Day 441 - Tuesday - Yikes a four pound gain

So instead of working towards my 40 pound loss I actually had a four pound gain.  Does that mean that my goal is 44 pounds or is it still 40?  I guess it is 40, because today is the starting day for the 40 pounds.  I wasn't sure I would get the 40 pounds - now 44 - no definitely 40.

I did everything right today except eat.  I exercised twice, weighed myself, and drank lots of liquids, but still I ate too much.  Why is it so hard?  Why has the heavens conspired against me? So again I woke up in a panic attack, I was right were I had started.  I didn't fit in chairs anymore, I couldn't go to India, I was being laughed at by the rest of the world and nobody liked me anymore.  I had failed.

Can Wednesday be any better?

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