To think that I have 99 days left (just a touch over three months) is hard to believe. I am not sure what I am going to do without the blog. It will be a sad day for me, but then on the other hand it isn't so important anymore either.
I am slowly forgetting what it was like not to be able to fit in a chair, or worry whether I will be able to get up from the floor, or if someone is thinking geez she shouldn't be in here she is just to big. Time has passed thinking that waiters are looking at me thinking I know she eats more (or wow she eats a lot) and having people give me a look of shock when the first see me.
I no longer stand out from the rest of the crowd, no longer do people look at me with pity or disgust. And I am forgetting what that is like.
But more importantly, I can buy off the sales floor now. Still in large sizes, but I am not in the largest size that the store has, and all the new clothes that I bought fit...
I am looking forward to the next 99 days, I hope that by the end I will be close to the end. Enough to say I suceeded at least.
I am slowly forgetting what it was like not to be able to fit in a chair, or worry whether I will be able to get up from the floor, or if someone is thinking geez she shouldn't be in here she is just to big. Time has passed thinking that waiters are looking at me thinking I know she eats more (or wow she eats a lot) and having people give me a look of shock when the first see me.
I no longer stand out from the rest of the crowd, no longer do people look at me with pity or disgust. And I am forgetting what that is like.
But more importantly, I can buy off the sales floor now. Still in large sizes, but I am not in the largest size that the store has, and all the new clothes that I bought fit...
I am looking forward to the next 99 days, I hope that by the end I will be close to the end. Enough to say I suceeded at least.
T3 - you are an incredible success in my eyes and I hope in yours too.
ReplyDeleteI also hope you will CONTINUE your blog since I've come to adore it.