Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Day 479 - Checked out

I have pretty much checked out, checked out of the program, this blog and weight loss.  It has been one year and 4 months, and I just don't know what to talk about anymore.  The truth is I am really tired of this here diet.  I am tired of trying to lose weight, I am tired of bouncing around for the last 3 months.  I have lost motivation and desire to continue.  It seems that I fight with myself everyday to just maintain, while I have so much more to lose.

It is at that point that I almost think I could eat 37 almond roca if I liked almond roca.  I want to eat what I want to eat and damn the consequences.  Everyday I get up and I have to measure out this and that, and I have to write it all down, and then I see that I ate more then I should and I feel like I haven't eaten anything.  Then I get on the scale week after week only to maintain the weight loss, while I really need to continue to lose weight.

I am just tired of it all.

2 comments:

  1. I agree with you!!
    I think we have gotten really successful at MAINTENANCE.

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  2. I love Almond Roca & even I could not eat 37 of them.

    I also have grown addicted to your blogs - particularly when you share NON-weight related thoughts & goals.

    PLEASE keep up the blog - hopefully on a daily basis since reading and responding to a week's worth of blogs doesn't do any of us justice.

    I do understand how you (and Jen of course) can be checked out of the program BUT the switch to maintenance is a big step. Maybe YOU (T3) should try cooking a few of the 350 calorie cookbook recipies - they're easy & good!

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