Day 561 - Harder then I thought

So it isn't smooth sailing.  I am already so tired of the product, and we have just started.  I am hating this so much that I don't think I can ever do it again.  At the back of my mind I always thought if I started to gain weight again I would just do the product for a couple of weeks and get back on track.  But this is not going to happen.  When I am done, I am done.  I don't think I will ever drink another shake as long as I live (and I hope that is a very long time.)

I think part of the problem was I didn't adequately prepare myself this time.  I had thought that I would have a month or two before I started after I decided to do it again, but instead I jumped in with no mental preparation.

I had all these things planned for this time, TH's birthday, N visit, Big D's birthday, all with the idea I would be able to go and enjoy heartily the meals placed in front of me, but instead I am stuck eating soup and vanilla drink.  BLAH BLAH BLAH.

Then we have LV, Little T's visit and the every popular BBQ fourth of July.  Before I just curled up in a little ball, did my daily walk and had minimum contact with the outside world.  I didn't have to smell the food, see the food or be around people eating the food.  BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I am thinking of going on a hunger strike.