Day 570 - Weigh in

Weight loss - dang.  I often wonder how it was that our cultural admires the thin.  I mean you would think heavier people would be the more attractive.  It is a survival thing, ability to store fat in times of famine.  But we don't.  Look like a greyhound not an elephant.    How did that come about?  Really?

I mean being thin used to be associated with poverty.  Not enough money to buy food, eating sporadically, being malnourished, unhealthy, and now it is just the opposite.

I am *surprised* at how many people are surprised how healthy they were considering their weight.  For many overweight individuals  lab work always came back good, maybe cholesterol a little high, blood pressure a little high, but for the most part healthy.

I am still considered obese, but my blood pressure is normal, my sugar is normal my cholesterol is normal.  Everything is normal.  My body is normal, but according to the charts I am at high risk for early death because of my weight.  Random number with a random response.

Yes being as overweight as I was was unhealthy, my blood pressure was high, and my sugar was on the border, but all other tests were normal.  I wanted to lose weight because I was morbidly obese.  My body wasn't going to be able to handle the weight too much longer, and I wasn't able to be in the "real" world as completely being that heavy.  

Now?  Now I could live completely healthy at this weight, and at this age be completely accepted at this weight.  (Notice I say at this age.)  I could stop losing weight and be happy - if I wasn't so damn competitive.  So many people in my life have thought of me as being vain.  This journey is not at all about looks for me.  True I never liked the way I looked "fat" but it didn't bother me enough to lose weight for the last 20 years.  But when I decided I wanted to do more then sit in the house and die, then I knew it was time to lose the weight.  You really can't move that much weight quickly, no matter how hard you try.  And believe me I tried.