Day 100 - Group 15 and random thoughts

It was a quiet day.  Group went fairly evenly, maybe a little boring - Ms. Sourpuss wasn't there and KFC Chick is at the end of the product now so didn't talk so much about cheating.  However, there did seem to be a few more people cheating then usual.  I guess as we wrap up this phase people don't really think that it is as important to stay the course.  Ms I binged because people were mean to me informed us all that she hadn't stayed the course and she felt so ashamed.  Everyone told her not to be ashamed and be happy with the weight loss already done.

Everyone has heard my rant before, so nothing new on the cheating.  Pay the piper I say.  But paranoia is rampant.  People are thinking that people are being mean to them because they are losing weight.  I have to say that I have never come across people being mean to me because I lost weight.  Most of the talk is that these peoples skinny friends are insecure with their friends losing weight and what - stealing their husband/boyfriend?

But the question that should be asked is - has the dynamic of the relationship changed.  Maybe before they were less sure of themselves and it was easier to control them?  As they lose weight they gain more control over their lives and  so are not so pliable?  Now I know that isn't the case with me, but I have never felt beat down by my friends and family (for the most part.)

There is some emotional aspect of eating, but there was an emotional aspect of smoking as well.  Those are just reasons why you eat at times when you don't need to eat.  Hopefully after 100 days I am learning to control the eating.  For me I like food.  One ice cream cone taste great two tastes better.  So maybe I can eat one ice cream cone - but that isn't going to be for a while.  I am content with the idea that I may spend the next year eating only skinless chicken and boiled vegetables.    One can only hope.