Time seems to just slip away from me as this journey goes forward. I am really waiting at this point and I feel that time is slipping right by me. T
Time is so precious, but we let it just slip by trying to find things to make it pass quicker especially when we are waiting for something to happen. So many people dread Monday and getting up and going to work, waiting and watching the clock so their real life can begin. Others waste time waiting so they can go to work, watching the clock until their real life begins. While others just watch the clock waiting for their real life to begin.
While on this program I have been distracting myself from old habits that I am trying to break, and yes I am waiting for my real life to begin. But I question - have I been having fun waiting for my real life to begin? Though I feel guilty I have been having fun. I love playing games all sorts of games, and doing puzzles and walking. I have been doing all of those things I have been enjoying them (feeling guilty along the way) but I haven't been doing other things that I would also like to do.
Even as I write this I want to get back to my game. I hate the game I am playing, and I can't seem to win. They keep attacking me, and I don't understand why they are attacking me when I am not attacking them. It is such a male game. The game is just so aggressive, and I just am not all that aggressive, so I don't really know what to do. I keep losing and getting back up and trying again.
Now I am sick, so now I am waiting to get well so my real life to begin.
Guilt BEGONE! There, I fixed it.
ReplyDeleteWhat game are you playing? Feel better soon!!
ReplyDeleteGuilt R'Us is a new Jewish Temple that is definitely in the "reform" Temple mode - maybe we should go.
ReplyDeleteSince tax season is upon us, part of our "real lives" get put on extension for a couple of months.
I am playing Starcraft, but I suck at it.
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