As I have been losing weight I look back at my mental conversations and sometimes wonder what was I thinking? I have very little patience for people who blame everything on their parents, siblings, teachers, family dog, fish, cat, you get the picture.
I will never say forget the wrongs or injustices done to you, just don't blame those wrongs and injustices on your current problems. But when you are overweight you don't want to blame yourself for the problem, there is always an external problem.
So I had a friend who was overweight and they would always tell me that it is impossible to lose weight once it is gained. That she was always going to be heavy no matter what she did. That resonated and when I started gaining weight I always heard her at the back of my head saying if it goes on it will never come off. I tried a number of times to take it off, doing different types of diets, but never succeeding for any length of time. TH always told me I didn't have any "won't" power, and that used to just tick me off. So I couldn't say no according to TH and according to L I couldn't take it off once it was on - so what is a girl to do. Blame them because they told me I couldn't do it?
No this is all on me - and while I wish there was a magic solution to this problem it is a slow ponderous process, so I plug on - hoping I won't use them as an excuse to fail
I will never say forget the wrongs or injustices done to you, just don't blame those wrongs and injustices on your current problems. But when you are overweight you don't want to blame yourself for the problem, there is always an external problem.
So I had a friend who was overweight and they would always tell me that it is impossible to lose weight once it is gained. That she was always going to be heavy no matter what she did. That resonated and when I started gaining weight I always heard her at the back of my head saying if it goes on it will never come off. I tried a number of times to take it off, doing different types of diets, but never succeeding for any length of time. TH always told me I didn't have any "won't" power, and that used to just tick me off. So I couldn't say no according to TH and according to L I couldn't take it off once it was on - so what is a girl to do. Blame them because they told me I couldn't do it?
No this is all on me - and while I wish there was a magic solution to this problem it is a slow ponderous process, so I plug on - hoping I won't use them as an excuse to fail
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