Yesterday was a bad day. I just wanted to eat and eat. My mind kept tricking me into thinking I didn't care about losing any more weight. I had a salad left over from my lunch with H and I ate that and my regular salad, thank god they didn't give me enough dressing to cover the leaves. If the dressing was clothes I would have been substantially naked.
So I ended up having an extra bar (Optifast) and ended up exercising for 65 minutes to get that extra 160 calories out of my system. But I kept walking to the fridge hoping something would magically appear that I could eat and not feel guilty about. Like ice cream with no calories. Now that I bought new clothes (that don't quite fit) I am trying to get it so they won't ever fit I guess.
Well I still have one more pound to lose before I will get on a bike. Then comes the hard part. I think I was at this weight for many years, so I think it is going to be really hard to get my body to give up this weight. I told TH that I was going to do the program again in January if I hadn't lost 40 pounds in the next 7.5 months. But I really want to have Christmas and eat this year. I think I missed the food the most at Christmas.
I want a treat, maybe I should do something more interesting then play Garden of Time.
So I ended up having an extra bar (Optifast) and ended up exercising for 65 minutes to get that extra 160 calories out of my system. But I kept walking to the fridge hoping something would magically appear that I could eat and not feel guilty about. Like ice cream with no calories. Now that I bought new clothes (that don't quite fit) I am trying to get it so they won't ever fit I guess.
Well I still have one more pound to lose before I will get on a bike. Then comes the hard part. I think I was at this weight for many years, so I think it is going to be really hard to get my body to give up this weight. I told TH that I was going to do the program again in January if I hadn't lost 40 pounds in the next 7.5 months. But I really want to have Christmas and eat this year. I think I missed the food the most at Christmas.
I want a treat, maybe I should do something more interesting then play Garden of Time.
You also go behind on your blog! TLL aka TSH aka TILL aka TH begged you to start it.
ReplyDeleteWhen you are ravenous, you get a bit "b*%%&y, so we (Taya, Mop & the aforementioned TLL) hope you can go back to merely hungry.
I'm writing this on Sat night after driving, cooking, shopping, cleaning, lamp filling all day & being blamed for cooking a great spicy Thai chicken soup.
Also watching a dog get stabbed on "The Game of Thrones" was upsetting - people stabbed, fine. Dogs stabbed - NEGATORY!
6.5 more days until bike ride (which will probably be mondo tough)
Don't even say the word ravenous. It's psychological, I'm telling you. All these many months, you haven't been. It has to do with transitions. My advice: don't acknowledge that you are hungry, because you probably aren't. It's something else.
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