It has been 27 weeks since I started this journey, just a little over half a year. Amazing. Amazing how far I have come amazing how far I have to go. Am I changed? No. I am fearful of eating certain things because I am afraid that I won't stop. I am not ready to eat some items, like sweets, but I don't really want sweets that much anymore.
I haven't "fallen" off the diet in 27 weeks. Not once. Now that I can eat regular food I keep the calories at the level that I am told to, and I don't eat more then I am allotted. Discipline - maybe, but more compulsion, you know like a vampire, I can't break it even if I give myself permission to.
I have given myself permission to eat a special meal for Big D's birthday, and I am looking forward to it, but I am not sure what will happen what that day comes.
I have thought about doing the liquid part again, but I am afraid I won't be able to do it a second time. It is easier when you are doing then when you are thinking about doing it again. I just don't think that I can do it again.
I keep saying I am going to eat "that" (whatever that may be) when I get off the diet, and I know that is the wrong thing to say, but at times it keeps me going. What I am planning when I go off my diet - Indian food of course. I can't wait.
I haven't "fallen" off the diet in 27 weeks. Not once. Now that I can eat regular food I keep the calories at the level that I am told to, and I don't eat more then I am allotted. Discipline - maybe, but more compulsion, you know like a vampire, I can't break it even if I give myself permission to.
I have given myself permission to eat a special meal for Big D's birthday, and I am looking forward to it, but I am not sure what will happen what that day comes.
I have thought about doing the liquid part again, but I am afraid I won't be able to do it a second time. It is easier when you are doing then when you are thinking about doing it again. I just don't think that I can do it again.
I keep saying I am going to eat "that" (whatever that may be) when I get off the diet, and I know that is the wrong thing to say, but at times it keeps me going. What I am planning when I go off my diet - Indian food of course. I can't wait.
It *is* hard to believe that it's been almost half a year! It's interesting to hear your observations of yourself. So many of the things you say apply in other areas, too. For example, many things are easier to do the first time -- because they are new and different. I can understand not wanting to do the liquid thing again. Fortunately you won't have to!
ReplyDelete1/2 year - wow! I can not believe how quickly it has gone. I haven't made "Ted's Taco's" in over 6 months - I think I will make them as a treat!
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